You know all those things you`ve always wanted to do..? You should go and do them!
De vraag waarom? Die krijg ik best vaak, het antwoord is simpel: Het blijft je bij!
Ja, het blijft je bij, nee je wordt er niet rijk van. Dat is voor heel weinig weggelegd. Het gaat niet vanzelf, het is keihard werken. En ja met een klein foutje kan alles over zijn. En ja je moet dingen opgeven, keuzes maken, teleurstellen. Maar waarom dan nog? Nog een keer.. Nou, het blijft je bij. Het gaat om het moment van die ene overwinning. En dat blijft je bij.
Dat ene moment. Waar je alles voor gelaten hebt, alles voor gedaan hebt –de weg die je hebt afgelegd, de persoon die je geworden bent – doordat je, je passie hebt gevolgd en niets anders:
De obstakels die je moet overwinnen. De obstakels die je los moet laten om te groeien. Leven gaat niet over vallen, het gaat erom wat je erna doet. Wat je eruit meeneemt en daarmee doet. Slechte dingen gebeuren die kun je niet tegen houden. Het is allemaal onderdeel van het proces. Jouw groei als persoon en als atleet. Dat blijft je bij, niemand pakt je dat meer af, het is jouw ontwikkeling, jouw weg jouw passie – jouw droom!!
Perfectie kan er niet blijven, je kan niet op de lijn van perfectie blijven, perfectie is de rechte lijn door het leven. Het leven gaat op en neer en zal af en toe die lijn raken – die perfectie: dat ene moment, die ene piek die jij nodig hebt om te winnen.
Je leert dat dingen in leven niet altijd perfect hoeven zijn, maar af en toe die lijn raken. Dat houdt je gemotiveerd. Dat daagt je uit. Dat laat je keihard werken voor datgeen dat je wilt bereiken. Ookal krijg je soms de vraag: Wat doe je dan hier? Waarom ben in je in Nederland? Werken hier? Dat is toch niets voor een atleet? Mag dat wel?… Trainen alleen, dat heeft toch geen zin..? Je hebt twee masters..? Onthoudt: Niets is zoals het lijkt.
“Imperfection is a way of freedom”
Ja, dat ene moment van overwinning.. en de week erna zit je weer gewoon in de collegezaal alsof er niets gebeurd is sta je gewoon weer shakes te maken, dozen te stapelen, of cappuccino’s met hartjes in elkaar te zetten. Alles om toe te werken naar dat grotere moment – je droom waar te maken. Met een vrolijke goeiemorgen voor die chauffeur, die nog en lange dag te gaan heeft , maar hem nu wel positief begint ondanks alle chaos, ondanks zijn eigen verhaal. Voor die ene lach van die conducteur, iets kleins wat zijn hele dag weer goed maakt…. En die van jou ook, want het blijft je bij. Dat ene moment, die glimach, die alles toch heel even perfect maakt – dat moment waarvoor je alles doet. Het moment dat het harde werken waard is, ookal is het maar voor even. Ookal is het iets kleins. Je laat iets achter, het blijft iedereen bij – je laat zien dat een glimlach het waard is, ookal is het voor heel even. Wees de reden van die glimlach, het begin van de goede dag. Die overwinning is iedereen weer vergeten na een week, maar de weg die jij vrij maakt, wat jij laat zien, de mogelijkheden in het leven, hoe jij je passie volgt, die droom, de glimlach die jij geeft – dat blijft ze bij! Je kan zoveel meer dan je denkt. Door mijn weg te delen, hoop ik dat ik jullie inspireer om ook je eigen weg te vinden in deze wereld, te geloven in niets en niemand anders als jezelf en je dromen waar te maken. Doordat jij je passie hebt gevolgd.
You know all those things you`ve always wanted to do..? You should go and do them!
Mijn leven is ook niet perfect maar imperfection is a way of freedom. Je kan geen grootheid bereiken met alleen obstakels te overwinnen. Het gaat niet om die te overleven , het gaat erom ze te begrijpen – ervan te leren. Ermee om te gaan en soms te geloven in die imperfectie. Het gaat om kleine dingen bij succes, geen rommel. Je pakt in voor gevecht, je bereid je voor op een gevecht, je werkt toe naar die piek. Dingen om je heen moet je leren respecteren, dat geeft je meer controle. Leren accepteren en leren aan te passen. Het hele proces eromheen, of het werken (cappuccino’s met hartjes maken, dozen stapelen), school, trainen de supermarkt of t` dagelijks leven is. Wat het ook is goede atleten zien uitdaging en pakken die aan. Je gaat voor succes. Of het nou alleen is of met een team om je heen. Elke fout, is een leerproces. Die horen bij het leven, het gaat om de reactie erop. Als je er toch aan gaat, dan helemaal. Je droom volgen, je eigen passie, niet die van iemand anders. No matter the conditions. Alleen dan gaat het je lukken. Om af en toe die lijn te raken, die lijn van perfectie, die ene overwinning op dat juiste moment! Die glimlach en je droom waar te maken
“Perfection is achieved not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing more left to take away. “
Ja en soms lijkt het of je in cirkels loopt, ronddraait en niks bereikt, maar vergeet niet dat een springveer ook uit cirkels bestaat en dat die de weg omhoog laten zien. De weg naar dat ene moment.
En dat ene moment…. dat blijft je bij J En die ontwikkeling, de weg die je hebt afgelegd, de dingen geleerd, de ervaring, de avonturen, de nieuwe vrienden gemaakt, de inspiratie die je achterlaat: dat proces, dat proces van imperfectie naar dat hele kleine moment van perfectie dat pakt niemand je meer af, dat maakt je sterk, maakt je wie je bent en laat je glimlachen. En alleen doordat ik mijn passie heb gevolgd, en mijn droom. Dus daarom
“Sometimes – Dreams do come true”
Blijf imperfect, blijf jezelf, klim de berg zodat jij de wereld kan zien, niet omdat de wereld jou kan zien. Geloof in dat ene moment en die lijn – ook al is die klein. Op je eigen manier. Er bestaat niet iets zoals een perfect werk – leven- studie -familie balans. Alles wat het vechten voor waard is brengt je leven in onbalans. Wees niet bang om te vechten voor je dromen en wees niet bang voor een beetje onbalans – soms brengt dat je juist naar de beste momenten! En daarna …. trek je het gewoon weer recht! Volg je passie, en je eigen droom – vertrouw op je eigen keuzes!
“Perfect people arn`t real and real people.. they ain`t perfect – Be brave, Be kind & Be YOU! ”
Starting the year of 2021 in the freezing cold of the Netherlands… frozen hands on the water, I missed that.. NOT. But hey, I can’t complain a few years earlier I earned to kite in the middle of the ice. (it’s still feels like summer now ) … Winter just became my new summer!
While at the moment of writing this little story, the politicians are discussing the evening clock and all rules I don`t even know about yet – But hey! today its 45 knots and above 5 degrees, we are allowed outside.. that means WINNING!! And that’s what matters!
“we can`t control everything that happens, but we can change our experience of those things”
… Lately I get a lot of questions about my 2020 and about my 2021.. and what the hell am I doing in the cold on the water.. working every night….since mannyyy years. “When are you leaving again? Training? Competitions? Travelling? Is it possible? Cancelled? Postponed? Well, I don’t have the answer either – it`s all difficult and strange, with a feeling am I doing it right or …… what will happen if ……”. It has been a year of chasing freedom, home gyms….and new experiences. Learning to enjoy the moments that matter! Leaving to train has become expensive with all obligatory tests etc… and risks not to come back or… cancelled. So meanwhile I make the most of being HOME!
2020 – You have been one hell of a stormy year in all directions! Yet an extremely though year, for some more than others. But it can`t rain forever (even not in Holland) and the dark clouds, they come to pass not to stay – don’t worry, I promise.
I (we) have been “home” more than “normal”. And that’s when…I realized, there’s no going back to “normal”. It will never be the same. The world changed and so did we. . Sadly seeing people leave this world (are they victim of the virus or the rules?), on the other side lives are saved, I lost and I learned, we cancelled and found new opportunity’s, I closed doors and opened new ones, got stuck but created new ways. After all, all around the world life is not the way it used to be – anymore. So many questions, but there are no answers – just choices, life is to be lived. Just because things are not at their best right now does not mean that we should give up or shouldn’t enjoy the moments we actually can! Yes we haven’t been training as we wanted or competing the way it is supposed to be… reaching the goals we wanted to, everything is uncertain – it is what it is. And yes life is unfair at times, and it might be not the year I (we) hoped for.. what did I hoped for anyway….???
I just want you to know: There are rules, but there is really no wrong way. There is not a specific “right way” to go through this pandemic. Neither there is “an award” for who is the best or the most miserable going through this. There is no government in the whole world saying “fun” is cancelled.(and that’s an important one I personally think!) Neither that we should go in social isolation or finger point at each other. While appreciation, cancelled, social distance, acceptance, quarantined, evening clocks, virtual dinner, balcony bingo and shared screen meetings are the new words we learn. Neighbor bush tennis is a new sport and patience is a big part of our “new” lives now.
And yes this year might destroyed some lives, dreams, families – everyone struggled. And yes there are no promises 2021 will be easier. Simply because: you can`t prepare for the future. We never know what life might throw at us tomorrow…..
“it isn`t where you came from, it is where you going now – that counts”
So I made up one rule this year, finding out the things I wanted to do wouldn’t work out as usual:
Don’t miss out on the right things worrying about all the bad & wrong things: All you can do is focus on the good, the reasons to smile, to laugh and do the best you can!! Take care of yourself and those around you – focus on the moments that matter!
……..because once this storm is over you won`t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won`t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won`t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm`s all about. And so you should make 2021 another storm to never forget for yourself- wherever you are and whatever you do! Be brave be kind and be YOU!
The moments that matter – 2020 I:
Started off in Cabarete, with lots of kiting in all disciplines and new adventures and friends, ready for more foiling and snowkiting the weeks after (I thought).
Snowkiting competitions ended up with lots of free snowboarding and skiing instead.
Learned for the first time about the Covid 19 and quickly realized it wasn’t a joke: Everyone and all underestimated this virus, not realizing what kind of impact it would have on our family’s and lives. What this virus will take from us and how hard we will face the reality after… But maybe also a bit what it will bring us.
Broke my wrist with while skating .. oooops. But if I had to anyway – the timing was perfect. Got finally back on the water in June. That made me make more walks than ever, discovered the dunes just around the corner…but no, walking ain`t for me – yet. But I also learned to surfskate, endless rides on the new swell…the concrete waves. Which was way more fun!
Got myself a new challenge and inline skated 100 km & 120 km – which was pretty cool to do. And I will do it again some time next up: rondje markermeer……………
Learned to wing & that’s where the door opened into a new direction on gusty lakes… they instantly became fun! Tried to SUP foil for the first time in my life… costed some bruises and some fights in the waves, but ..yet another door opened……… And I also went on a little wing adventure which taught me some more ocean knowledge. Did my first attempt to surf foiling – which I still suck at for the moment and – I am a bit scared for… the mast the waves, the leash.. But to be good at something you have to suck at something first is it… ??
Flew a 21m for the first time(without downlooping it straight into the water). Finally took the floaters & the chickenloop of the bar…………. Also…. Decorated a pole on the beach as a Christmas tree with my kite … somewhere in spain……. Oooops….Still not the most skilled “foil nerd” out there…learning every day
Worked more than ever (- people keep on ordering) – counted teddy bears on the road (bicycle) to work. Through the empty streets and city centre of the first lock down. No partying people anymore in the city in the middle of the night, whishing me good luck at work. And the second lockdown made it even worse, I can`t imagine a Friday evening with partying people anymore…?? I need to have permission to be outside t cycle to work every night… and yet I explain it every night….because police officers are just doing their work.
Learned Balou (our dog) what kiting is all about.
Travelled for the first time again during the whole covid situation: To spain for the Spanish tour, became third. Realized I needed a bit more practice.
Discovered kitespots in Germany, camping with all (!) kitegear, winggear & foil gear. Twintipped more than I foiled. – but enjoyed every moment!
Became 20th on the individual Europeans in Poland. Kited in more seaweeds than I would have ever imagined. Finally legal, participated my first ever team event as Dutch team in Austria at the europeans (the new Olympic class). Which was fun to do.
Slept in a van for over a month, drove more than 6000 km in total with my co driver: DOG. Meanwihhile……Killed 4 phones in a year incl. simcards – personal record. Reconnected with my best friend on the road the VW van. read more Learned everything about how to convert a van, how to install solar panels, a window, became an electrician, still learning for car mechanic though.
I have been HOME with Christmas! (right on time for dinner). No Christmas tree but a house full of kites boards, skates, skateboards, skies snowboards, wings and love its Christmas every day at our house. I have been awake during the Dutch New Year. (that has been a while……).. and HOME.
After tooo many requests I finally started the shop again… still a work in progress project.. but coming sooooooon for you guys toooooo!! So from frozen to liquid water you can support my dreams and become part of my road around the foiling world again.. representing the Dutch on competitions and trying to reach the top in kitefoiling!! Anyway … stay tuned!
I should have… I wish… I planned … ooohw: cancelled! I miss.. but I embrace what I have and appreciate HOME!! Grateful for the little getaways and training moments we have now and then. I can still work, study and am still al live – which is pretty cool . The most valuable things in life cannot be seen, bought or touched – 2020 taught me.
The Netherlands became our new adventure project with the kite, sup , surf foil, wing, skates, skateboard AND winter just became my summer so let`s enjoy it!
From being unplanned, flexible and unorganized, too creative and making a mess, to all of that finally works out in a good way, because 2020 was and 2021 still is all about that! Stop swimming against the current (accept life is what it is and it will be unfair sometimes) – it doesn’t make any sense, go with the flow: be imperfect, be that one that says; “Nah that ain`t for me”- set your own goals and go or it – even though its different!
Vaak hoor ik: maar dat staat niet op facebook? Dat post je helemaal niet? Eeuh nee, we weten allemaal dat de klaag muur ergens anders staat toch? 🙂 En een zielig verhaal delen, de mindere dingen, is dat om het delen, of om aandacht te trekken. Ik weet het niet. Alles krijgt altijd zijn eigen leven op social – media. Aan 1 leven heb ik genoeg. En we hebben allemaal een verhaal, ons eigen verhaal, waar alleen wij zelf de waarheid van weten. Vaak wordt er geoordeeld vanuit het hoofdstuk waar mensen binnen lopen. Of bij wat ze zien, een moment opname, vergeleken met het eigen pad. We luisteren, lezen en kijken om te reageren, te oordelen, niet om te begrijpen. Is dat wat ik wil bereiken? Nee.
“ik ben jou niet”
En wie zegt dat facebook een reflectie is van mijn complete leven, mijn werkelijkheid. Dat is wat ervan gemaakt wordt. Reality, open en eerlijk is het zeker wel als het om het kitesurfen gaat, de competities en het reizen. Gewoon omdat ik dat leuk vind om met jullie te delen. Omdat ik weet dat er vragen over zijn en dat het gelezen word. En misschien andere weer verder op weg kan helpen op een reis, te inspireren of die dromen toch echt te volgen. Om niet bang te zijn anders te leven dan anderen. Soms en later worden altijd – nooit! Sommige mensen zullen toch nooit begrijpen waarom jij een bepaald pad in slaat om te bewandelen. En dat hoeven ze ook niet, het is jou reis, jou verhaal! Dus waar wacht je op. Niet perfect is ook goed. Gemaakt om te laten zien wat er is in de wereld, wat er kan en niet om ook maar iemand jaloers te maken. Want geloof me dat is echt nergens voor nodig!
Mijn verhalen en herinneringen levend houden – voor mijzelf.
Degene die de rest willen weten , kunnen het vragen. Degene die het verhaal achter die positieve, motiverende toch kritische post willen weten. Of waarom deze quote? Die zijn er ook. En dat laten ze weten, een berichtje of een vraag. Gewoon persoonlijk ipv aan de hele wereld. Een wedstrijd die eens wat minder gaat, resultaat waar ik niet trots op ben, is allemaal part of the game. Maar ik zie dat meer als motivatie. Niet perse slecht / dat komt dan ook zeker wel voorbij. Zonder “struggles geen progressie”. Werk studie school / familie, mijn verhaal, dat is van mij en niet van social media. This is real life! En hier vind je stukjes daarvan, antwoord op sommige vragen, aan jullie om een relevante puzzel compleet te maken. Om alles echt te begrijpen i.p.v te beoordelen.
Because…Life isn’t perfect but it has perfect moments!👌 😊 #throwback🔙
Yesss I am still alive🙃, maybe not that responsive or sharing the kitesessions with you – yet, but my arm is still in one piece and I am just hanging on, learning to be patience, to not fight the facts, to deal with it and this world!🤷♀️ What about you guys?
Even now, when times get tough & things get super strange (well, not only things…also people’s mentality). All around the world life is not the way it used to be – anymore.🤔🌏So many questions, but there are no answers– just choices, life is to be lived. Just because things are not at their best right now does not mean that we should give up or shouldn’t enjoy the moments we actually can!🙌🙌
There is not a specific “right way” to go through this pandemic. Neither there is “an award” for who is the best or the most miserable going through this. There is no government in the whole world saying “fun” is cancelled. Neither that we should go in social isolation or finger point at each other.👮While appreciation, social distance, acceptance, virtual dinner, balcony bingo and shared screen meetings are the new words we learn. Neighbor bush tennis is a new sport and patience is a big part of our “new” lives now🤷♀️
Just remember life isn`t about surviving these things, it`s about understanding this –we are all struggling (and not only the ones in need of a hospital bed). Do we focus on the right things?We might save lives now, but don’t we destroy some in the end?We can’t hide from it, it exist and it will exist forever. And we might have to live a bit longer like this. 🤐Keep hustling, keep fighting and keep hanging on!💪
And once the storm is over you won`t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won`t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over.But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won`t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm`s all about.🌪️⚡
We might be further away from each other, but in another way we are closer than ever.Be brave, be kind and be You!😊❤️
World? yes you world, know what?? Should we uninstall 2020 and reinstall it. This version has a virus.. it ended up on standby – but not on hold – for a lot of us. Are you confused already? Trapped inside? On standby – mode? Kiting? Or isolated? Or reopened already?? What to do and what is the best decision? This year.. I rather skip it..? Or.. well, maybe it brought us some good things to?
We ended up into two worlds. One with really bad things, hospitals full of reality – showing how vulnerable we actually are. Closed businesses, people without jobs, closed schools… uncertainty about the future. Working at the grocery store is suddenly a highly important job, we might have to realize after this as well. Just like the transport. Without transport no medication – food – or anything. In the other world it brought us together, the you know what gave us time. We might be fyrther apart than ever, but in the other world we are closer than ever before.
And some days, I think it brought us a bit apart, because of different opinions, lost lives, lost friends, family, all processing this on our own way, discovering new things thoughts and having time…. Yes it`s still our world we have to live in.
The You Know what virus got us like:
“I have seen people doing the craziest things finally find their creative inner self. Challenges from the best crash to foiling inside to the in your face, throwbacks and push up challenges. Looks like were all still alive…... from the toilet paper madness to doing skateboarding backflips of the roof, snowboarding on blankets from the window, climbing around the whole house, skiing on the table, kiting at the stairs. Granny’s with sticks in the park to chase everyone on a 2m distance… We are guilty too, actually already whole my live I realized just now: Made a little skate bowl in the backyard, practice board flips from the chair (sorry neighbors ..again) , skate tricks on the carpet and I do play soccer indoors, slide the table and nothing to say about the gym upstairs.. meanwhile I write this blog, still with one hand, staring out of the window – I see people starting new hobbies though the street… skating, slackline etc.. We all got our own quarantine goals it seems. #stayathome #dontstaysafe or..??”
TheRide of uncertainity
One thing is sure: We have to ride through this together. Even if it`s through the swell in your living room (for some countries around the world). Or kiting with the wind of the ventilator in the bedroom. We are in this together – not alone! Don’t be selfsentric. It surprises me how disciplined some people are.. and some totally not. During the day, going skating – I am never alone anymore – everyone is outside. (I am too.. #quilty). But Every step I make, every trick I do someone is talking to me, looking for communication, positive though… Being some kind of entertainment show dancing on my longboard in front of the “street of old people”. Recognized by every window that shows a head with grey hair – staring and waving – and secretly smiling. Yes I still play outside – because staying at home and staying safe just doesn’t work for me. But I don’t complain if some beach or anything needs to be closed. They should have a reason for it. We shouldn’t discus this. Closed is closed. But for now I am happy we can still be outside and…. no –one said fun is cancelled. But we have to keep our distance and not make it too busy everywhere. Do what you got to do and go home! J
Meanwhile, some are worrying about them being chased of the beach with a drone. Competitions that get moved, a way to still effectively train. Why? To beat the rest of the world? but what if the world beats us? While you were too busy living your live, finding a spot to kite driving across borders… It shouldn’t be a discussion.
You know that people die alone? People fight the biggest fight of their lives, alone? People are left alone? People do there last breath, alone? We are not untouchable. I hope you realize that too. I know some do, but some not. I know by now how vulnerable we actually are, after seeing a hospital full of reality and hardworking people. You can for sure, but don’t complain if they close something because of you. Instead team up, accept it and try to understand. If you really want too: Make it happen, find a way to keep the spirit alive in a responsible manner, so sport can stay (without finger pointing each other). Just like the people that had to shut down there business. Or the once that lost lives or beloved ones. I don’t hear them complaining too, while they are suffering just like the people in need of a hospital bed. So do something useful with your time. And don’t make the world think we don’t care. Be self-disciplined – accept what`s expected from you.
You will discover some funny facts though:
The new hobby of the neighbor is maybe not where he is made for.
That the dog is the most wanted object nowadays.
That we fight about who is throwing away the thrash.
People that keep so many distance, they must be measuring in inches.
Hand sanitizer helps you discover new cuts you never know you had.
That some people know shit about technology and skype “I can’t hear youuuuu, Hellooooo, Hellloooo – Maybe switch on the microfoon” . and you can work in pajamas, sticking some tape on top of the webcam. Don’t start with sharing a screen.
That your girlfriend (or boyfriend!!) is not made to be a haircutter – another reason to switch of that webcam.
That you actually have nice neighbors. And playing badminton over the wall can be fun to.
Never had so much fun with toilet paper, admit it.
Wishing your parents good luck when they go shopping.
shopping together everyone with their own cart made it a bit more funny.
Hamster virus or the virus of stupidity? Anyway –Use it wisely.
The you – know – what …It made me realize waking up, seeing the sun shining – outside, I have the chance to see another day – be thankful. Many others are not able to, some never – and it happens faster than you ever can imagine. Within one week I started to ask myself the question again and again… Is this our world? Yes now it is. Some are still free, some are locked, beaches are closed, gyms, restaurants, schools and even the borders – everything thats not important to healthcare. Some friends are stuck on places you don`t want to be- almost in a war kind of situation. It s serious.
The reason I share this story with you : This week my opinion got asked… I actually dont got one: I am just curious whats going to happen with our world.
Our world: I looked around with my surprised face. My eyes wide open (and no I wasn’t in the supermarket in front of the toilet papers – this time). Is this our world? An elderly woman asked me if I know she could go inside to her husband. Once she told me where he was – even I know that moment I couldn’t help her I tried – really hard – because that’s my work and that`s what we should do during this times – help each other. But then I realized no-body could help her anymore… Life changed, the world changed- we have to accept it and deal with it – help people even though we know we can`t. Be nice but keep distance and listen to the advice.
..a bit shocked to leave the elderly lady alone, waiting like that. I gave her one of my kitesurfing magazines to read an get a bit of distraction in this ..world.
…Walking further outside the door with my fresh cast, all test survived – still in another world. It changed in a week. A reporter catches me to ask about my work, my cast, my arm and anything inside and outside the hospital – I didn’t realized it, did some staring at what’s going on around. My friend works at the IC in Italy and.. meanwhile I am seeing her with tears in her eyes this morning on skype:
” no- one knows what`s really happening inside the hospitals”. “The neighbors are in quarantine… friends in voluntary quarantine to travel others stuck on dangerous places… people lose beloved ones they never had the time to see or properly talk with…or let the phone ring 10 times, just because you didn’t make the time – later suddenly became never” “healthy people can transfer the virus without noticing… or too late.. and I need to make impossible choices” – i dont like this world – and people dont take it serious. That all, because you’re live was based on financial decisions, egoistic decisions, you wanted that party, or that gym session above all and now you regret not picking up that phone earlier or saying hello once in a while a little more. “threated my first patient and now months later, I already did too many – too many who did not survive – I can`t do it anymore.. my parents…they are in another hospital…how long can we continue like this…?”: she said.
I didn’t noticed but the reporter is staring with me for already half an hour, quietly – listing to the conversation with my friend. In the supermarket and the streets around we still make fun about it, children play, we are talking cloe to each other, but this world here is different. It opened my eyes – wide open. With respect to all nurses and all other hard working people inside this world, our world. Be nice, help people out, but keep distance and listen to the advice. And just make a stupid video, enjoy netflix, start another challenge at home, have a skype party with friends, play with the toilet paper, shower in desinfaction.. but dont go running all on the same road… enjoy the nice weather from your backjard for a while. We are in this together as one world.
“I work inside the hospital & transport on location , not at home and in the night shifts aswell (not as a nurse )and I do have a cast around my arm I have been in there, seen the quarantine, the tests, experienced it all yes”… oow … “My story from inside and outside this world, you asked?”
Forget about the other viruses going one these days: the hamster virus and the virus of stupidity. But honestly, I think it’s a gift, a gift of time we never have. Always people have the excuses I don’t have time, I can’t make time. Here you go: Now you got it. Use it wisely. Now you have the time to play with the kids, talk to your parents on the phone, to read that book or watch that movie, to study, to sit on that couch you didn’t even know there was in your house, to clean everything you needed to clean for ages, ask your friends how they do – by zoom. Time, to reset and realize what really matters the most in life. To overthink your dreams, passion and goals.Use it wisely. Before starting to get angry, panic around or complain or do if nothing is going one.
Some of us have been there and have seen how it is in the hospitals, quarantine and around – it`s not a joke. Seen with own eyes what is going on, been inside this story. And usually I am the one going against it and ditch that rules, because I am not scared and like adventure. But this ..this is different. People are crying – outside – because, people who are loved really die, alone. Never seeing your beloved ones anymore. Nurses have to make sacrifices they never want to. Need to implement ramp scenarios teached on university but never thought they would ever use. But its what’s really happening now – all around the world – and we are just hanging on.
So if you have been given time, because of a cancelled trip or work shift, you’re not allowed to do your favorite sport- Use it wisely. I know you are disappointed not being locked down on that favorite kite or holiday island, not being able to work, too see your friends, you wish you studied for another job to work now (accountant or transport.. or nurse), but there are worse things in the world right now. Enjoy your gift – time and Use it wisely. Be glad if you are at home and safe – keep it like that.
We can still make fun about it, because when you look outside the window the sun is shining and all is the same but the world is different. We can still do things we want to and have to do, because we got time – Use it wisely. And not by emptying supermarkets or pharmacies…or going against rules that are necessary, follow advice and keep on smiling there is more than you think! You don’t have to react to everything and always – let it go. Open up for new things, help and be nice – stay home.
“And personally..? “ Well …eeeeuhhh I dont have too much to say “you use it wisely..?” “What about the isolation..?.. did youre life changed..?”
I just love it when the hardest choices are made for me… (for the once of you who missed the cast around my arm)
I don’t hold myself back. Even though a broken arm or something else that still let me walk. There is always a way ..always, you just have to find it. So the Red bull race in Norway.. I didn’t even think about how to fit that hand glove with the cast. I will make it happen, just like holding that kite. Be brave and go out there. Against some opinions.. but I can’t decide not to do it – if I can. That’s not me. Appears that they cancelled the race because of the you-know-what….and shut down the whole country.. and two weeks of quarantine to Snowkite in a country is a bit too complicated if home is nice too… And the countries around did shut down too, so the choice is made for me again – no snowkiting also somewhere else, stay safe.
Same story: Soccer, rainy , outside and we had one person short. We just can`t afford it to get a fine and to lose, to lose the points we need – because it would be an easy win… And I can’t let a team down. Because that means no champion this year – not an option. So even though I had to run away from the ball, hide for the shot of the defender, I would have gone there for sure. What appears? They cancelled all the competitions – next weeks…
Happy me again
It let me think Isolation ready or normal lifestyle…..?
When you actually find out, your normal lifestyle is already self- isolation – proof…
We did some unintended hoarding already – no not because of the you-know-what. But because of going to Norway. So we are ready for 3 weeks at home.. Usually we don’t have any food at home.. need anything?
We do have a floor full of gym toys, maybe sooner than we had a real bed – I didn’t had a gym subscription anyway.
Well, I already practice my skate tricks, soccer tricks inside the house on rainy days… sorry neighbors, plants and mum (but you should blame dad for the ideas and kicking the ball always to hard). Am I the only one in this? The kitebar is also swinging around in the room. Just like the dinner table we use for table tennis or the wall made empty for tennis…or who has still the skippy balls at home..?
No – one looks strange now if I have 1 arm and 1 arm inside my jacket, I can’t shake your hand. Its policy now is it? Maybe I should keep the other arm inside as well, do you think?
Finally people woke up or am I the one isolated always… ?
Thinking more about that… my life goes one like usual…. (Sofar)
Watching the class together with my teammates back at home. Usually I am the strange one watching all classes from under a palm tree, from a boat, on top of a mountain or in the ice cave – on the other side of the world. They might follow me next time….well and its 2020 after all so we all have some sort of skype, Facebook, Instagram to stay in touch. It’s not that hard, I had to fight the first years to convince everyone I could study online, stay in touch online, work online… the world is changing. oké and I stil have to watch 30 lectures old 3 hours back ……………. How long should I stay at home? another year?
They don’t always have to bump into you in the train or bus anymore.. and no traffic jams. Its nicely quit outside in public transport and people keep distance. You get even a seat in the busy train in the early morning or on Saturday night after a shift – nice! but also strange in a way…..
And you know? You can always switch of the tv or social media. (if you only know how many time my phone is on flight mode… ssst). Take a break from everything and stay in your own world and use your time. But not too long, the world might have moved on during that time. Not guilty… but yes I am the one who sometimes misses out on complete conversations and appointments, questions…etccccc.
I can finally (yes mum – really this time) unpack my boardbag, which I already had to do for ages. Every time I left I just took another boardbag, snow, sun – or the same and never unpacked just switched incl. the dirty clothes… The story of the past months. And finally the skies are waxed up and ready.. for next season. This season the wouldn’t make it ready anyway
Actually home feels like a holiday now if you are there three quarters of the year. No place like home. Finally the time to fix that door we had to do already a few years ago… And did you now I also have family? Just wished them happy new year J finally I wake up and I know where I am. The same place for more than a week. And you know.. I also have neighbors.. not just the bisons..? I am the biggest tourist there is nowadays in my own country.
Say yes, Finally time to clear that hard drive and all the SD cards of the phone, drone, gopro and camera… I run away from already way to long. Ooow and… finally: Found the Dutch chargers for my laptop again. Every time I start searching I end up somewhere in between not finding it and not a wanting to miss my flight.
Do all the 10.000 updates on my laptop, which I never even try to do with the Wi-Fi networks I meet abroad…waste of time (and maybe, just maybe not patient enough).
Finally I hear the delivery man thinking ( and the neighbors) they open the door , are actually at home to receive their own package for the irst time in yearsssssss.
Many are complaining and I know it will affect everyone around. But hey be positive. Think about other things.. meanwhile I have so many shifts I can’t even work them. As a freelancer it`s about time now to find something else, be creative. Cause everyone around is complaining and I have so many shifts I can`t even work them ..without that much effort. So there is plenty of work out there. Find the places where you are needed. Or in this three weeks you can be a pro in editing software, designer, another language and wayyyy more, while safely staying inside.
Finally the time to kite– you don`t want to talk to people anyway if fits windy – finally a legal reason to rush to the beach, be unsocial and kite… and rush home again (in wetsuit) because it cold. Play indoor soccer. Stop making excuses and do the workouts you always and always wanted to do. Just finish that puzzle. Or try that new skates + trick.. or maybe leave this idea for safety reasons…
You’ve got time – use it wisely.
“What do you think about the shopping?”
The dangerous hamster stupidity virus:
Am I the only one not getting it….??
Empty supermarkets within a few minutes…I really do enjoy shopping in the supermarket now. I used to hate it, in and out and you always forget something. I mean how funny is it seeing someone grab ALL – I mean 30 bags of 16 toilet paper rolls. Just stare and watch – I did this morning with just tree apples in my hand. The lady at the desk said: “ that’s all? “With a surprise face I told her: “Yes that’s all”. I mean how many sheets of toilet paper you use in a day..?? As well as I noticed the Dutch don’t like mandarins – even the expensive, not so fresh, already cut fruit is more popular. Do we live of bread and toilet paper? It`s 2020 guys! The virus kills, you get sick… and you have lots of toilet paper – nice! But for what?
And you know? if you come in the morning the supermarket is al filled up…and so is your kitchen by now I guess?
We should all be a bit more creative, we’ve got time now is it..? It reminds me at the moment on a boat in the Philippines I got pushed a bucket or something into my hands when entering the toilet…. A “tabo” – I learned a year later. No its not to wash your hands/ face or flush the toilet.. or a cooking pan (looks like it though). No its another way…there I learned how to survive this toilet paper crises… and more … baking your own bread is really not that difficult and its fun! Well, and not only with this, also with staying home and keeping distance of each other. We can do this.
Or just enjoy your quarantine – time while visiting another country. Every problem is an opportunity! Mindset guys…don’t lose it – open your eyes. Like mine did at the hospital. Change is the only constant thing. We will adapt, we will grow and we will gain a greater appreciation, strength and passion. Together we are strong. Let nature be your teacher and use the time given wisely. Even if it means not coming outside or allowed to go anywhere, than just stay at home and be safe – shouldn`t be a problem is it? Be aware you might never get a change like this again! Make the best out of it See the world changing but also see it as an opportunity. While others are fighting where we stop. Lets not intterupt that, but support each other, stay at home or away from everyone. We often lose sight of it but: Health is and stays more important than anything else on the world!
“…..and we have seen the example in italy. the reporter concludes….” What do you think?
And I , I think: We can`t escape, the news, the quotes, the story’s, facebook – The-You-Know-What. It is what it is and we have to deal with it.
Airplanes disappeared from the sky, cycling to work through the city, in the middle of the night suddenly became boring, no bridge huggers, still looking for people dancing around coming out of the café, drinking to that party without reason. It’s scary when I`am literally alone on the world early morning with my bike….. Did the world stopped turning?
Thinking, when finally seeing people how to greet them or at the traffic light to press the button or not. It’s the little things.. While in the parks, beaches and on the water it seems nothing is going one, everyone enjoying life, freedom – all running on the same roads, talking with friends we now meet in the supermarket, but is that the right thing to do? They have time enough while others have time too short. Can we make that joke? Can I greet my friends? We have to wait on distance of each other for this storm to pass…?
I don’t know.. But what I do know: We took everything for granted and we have to solve this together. Now the strange thing is there are two different worlds. The-You-Know- What gave us some really bad things, experiences, but also some good things and lessons: Don’t take any sunrise or sunset for granted.
On top of the mountain where everything makes sense or..?
It’s a question I answer a lot to: for a lot of people it`s all about the nature and enjoying, they are really good at it. But for me it`s different at the top of the mountains.
… Or not at all.. because some things I will just never get. And yet every year I think about it – still. No matter how many years, hours, days, lives, century I am on the slopes or in the mountains. How many times I climbed to that top. I still don’t understand some things – even though I try really hard.
People always tell me to enjoy, enjoy the little things, appreciate what I actually have reached already. But they don’t understand me – even though I try really hard. I tell them I enjoy progression and challenge – adventure, the unknown. That moment I have fun. Some look me scared in the eyes… When I reached that mountain top, my climb starts. I want to learn new tricks, push the limits and explorer new boundaries. Create my own way down. All the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it and sometimes that way up is longer than you think… or down, how you see it. But if you learned that new trick or survived that deep slope – I am ready for the next top to start climbing – it just never ends for me – but then, and only then I really enjoy!
I always think that every mountain top is within reach , if you just keep on climbing. Soon as I am there I start thinking in possibilities. What now? What’s next? …. Meanwhile I see some people next to me stare at it, take a picture and enjoy the view – knowing they will never get to that mountain top – it`s not within reach. I stood next to these people many times, just looking at them with my surprised face, listening to their conversation… In secret my mind is already counting down to find my way without thinking, just going – that mountain top is within reach you know? I don’t know why, it just happens. But what I do know: The top of the mountain has a different meaning for everyone around me. Just like winter sport. And just like people, we are all different. Good because if everyone was like me, we wouldn’t be safe out here after all. And that’s okay! But it still doesn’t make sense to me – even though I try really hard.
..Enjoying the moments…
I like those people who are happy enjoying the sun and just touring around on the slopes in the mountains. All day every day. Same time – same place – same ski lift – same slopes. And still they seem happy, doing the same over and over again. Well the turns they make are always different but.. they come down safely and that’s all that matters.
Just like every year I am surprised how many pizza shovels there are on the slopes. All day every day. No progression and still going strong – just getting down and enjoying that view, that lunch, be happy. Going through the same struggle every day – looking can I make that turn, am I not going to fast, don’t drop out of the lift. One slopes is taking forever. I wish I could do that.
And I do deeply, deeply respect people who can read a book on the slopes at a bench in the middle of the slopes. With all those people and challenges around. How? Or the people that just go for a walk along the slopes on top of the mountains. I mean the view is nice I know.. but to manage to go down through that forest – without getting lost or dropping down a cliff – would be even more awesome is it? still doesn’t make sense to me – even though I try really hard.
Because I can`t. Every time I try and try again. I just can`t enjoy it without progression, without stupid things, without crashing, without exploring that boundaries and pushing that limits. I always come up with something even if it’s not on purpose. And I will stick to it. And especially not if I know I could have done something but it just doesn’t work now. I don’t stop trying for some reason. That’s what makes it fun for me! And how I learned a lot.
“Because when you stop and look around life is pretty amazing”
Until people stop me and tell me to look around. How nice the view is. I didn’t even realized. Didn’t even think about it. But you know what? They are actually totally right. It`s nice here, life is amazing – indeed. Glad you notice, cause I didn`t. But as soon as I am left by myself that feeling comes back again. What boundary do I need to cross today, what adventure can I think off. Where can we go of the beaten path. Even the skilift has no escape and I will try to implement some handle passes on the way to the top.
Because for me:
“it`s not the mountain we conquer but ourselves”
The mountains teached me a lot. It brought me where I am today, the person who I am nowadays, the skills I have and the adventures I take, the funny moments and crashes that are part of it. This is /was my comfort zone and also everything but my comfort zone. This is where I learned to challenge myself, to push myself to get better, to be better, to get comfortable with the uncomfortable. Here I learned: the difficult is what takes a little time, the impossible is what takes a little longer. Don’t give up just because something is hard, pushing through challenges is what makes you grow! … And great things take time, so does skiing almost 125 km/hour again or landing that trick. I might have to accept I enjoy that way! This is life – and I decide.
….. I like to learn as much as possible BUT a bit more about something important I learned (and I am still learning): Enjoying the little things in life, appreciate what you actually have reached. No- one will take that away from you! If I forget: remember me – again and again. Stop – look up, look around, enjoy. You will see the world and the view that was already there for days.. while I was still going and going, focused to learn something new.
“there is nothing to proof and nothing to protect, I was who I was and I am who I am and that’s enough”
If there are no kickers, halfpipe or sliders, I will race down again. Even though I know I am not going to compete. I push myself to go faster and faster every single moment. It’s not that I have to proof anyone what I can do. No- one would be asking questions if I didn`t try a new trick. Or being angry at me for not trying something different. Pushing me for being not as fast as yesterday. There will be only one person that might be disappointed that will be … yes that will be me. The rest just happy that I am safe back home – I know
On top of the mountain where everything makes sense or..?
It’s a place where we learn a lot. About ourselves and life, where we enjoy the moments and have fun. Realize that life is about more than always progressing. That the top of the mountains has a different meaning for everyone around. Standing still for a moment is the challenge of the stubborn go-getters as me. Accept there is no finish line.
Thanks to all people around I realize that! I might never get it – even though I try really hard. But I realize it, and I know: Don’t forget to look up sometimes!
Afscheid nemen bestaat niet – Best friends stick together and never say goodbye.
Of toch wel. Wouter is altijd als een grote broer geweest. Iets wat hij echt niet kon – die mening deelde wij niet met hem. Pas een maand geleden heeft hij ons verteld wat er nou echt aan de hand is. Tijd om boos te worden of verbaasd te zijn was er niet. we geloofden het gewoon niet. Hij is nog maar 32, en vertelde ons altijd:
“You should hold on a little longer than you can – thats where it will change”
nou deze keer dus mooi niet. Jij hield het al 6 jaar vol. en ik dacht dat ik dit altijd overdreef. je hebt altijd baas boven baas, zelfs nu win je het.
Elke keer als ik op het punt sta een nieuw trucje te doen of iets te doen wat ik nog nooit gedaan heb, mezelf over dat randje duw van snelheid… denk ik weer aan jou: “ik heb het nog nooit gedaan dus ik denk dat ik het wel kan” . De pippie langkous oplossing voor alles. En ja met twee vlechtjes in kon ik dat wel zeggen. en weetje? dat doe ik gewoon nog steeds.
S`avonds pak ik nog steeds die telefoon, om jou te vertellen wat er vandaag gebeurde, meestal had jij dat al gevraagd. De domme dingen, verhalen die jij altijd goed keurde of weer voor iets nieuws uitgedaagd. Voordat ik op zend druk hoop ik dat je het nog gewoon zult lezen. Het is onmogelijk om je te vergeten, die iemand die zoveel gaf om te herinneren. Zoveel herinneringen en nu ben jij er 1…. Leg me dat nog eens uit? Zoveel samen van de wereld gezien, samen getraind, samen. En nu alleen..
Wouter, door jou bestaat deze site, (oké en je bent echt wel een van de schuldige dat ik Facebook heb en nu overal aan het kitesurfen en foilen ben). Ik kon hier alles kwijt, jij wilde dat ik mijn verhalen weer delen zou, al was het alleen voor jou. En deze keer met een kite. Wij deden alles op onze eigen manier. Daarom verdien je ook gewoon een plekje hier. Nu kun je nog even aan onze zijde staan, genieten van die lach, van die traan en gewoon nog elke dag.
Afscheid nemen bestaat niet – Best friends stick together and never say goodbye.
Ik zag het in je ogen en hoorde het in je stem. Je zegt het niet maar ik weet het gewoon, dat jij niet lang meer bij ons bent.
Terwijl de wereld langs me heen gaat. Jij in mijn gedachten nog bestaat. Het boek gesloten is, ik je voor de laatste keer zag, het leven is voorbij, een laatste dag, een definitief afscheid van een leven met elkaar. Afscheid nemen doen we niet, dan word het zo zwaar.
Best friends stick together and never say goodbey
Je onderging alle kuren, en niets kon volstaan, jou leven mocht niet langer duren. Nog even vastgehouden, maar je moeten laten gaan. Het einde van twee beste vrienden samen. Het begin van … …
In mijn hoofd nog zoveel vragen. Nog zoveel plannen, nog zoveel dromen. Weetje hoever we zouden komen?
Op het water, de sneeuw nog zoveel grenzen te verleggen zoveel avonturen op het water, zoveel te zeggen, zoveel te leren. Later wordt nooit. Is er iets om de tijd terug te keren?
En … Had ik je eigenlijk wel gezegd, hoe trots ik op je ben? Weet je eigenlijk hoe ik je bewonder? Super blij ben dat ik je ken! Dat je zo lief bent en onze vriendschap zo bijzonder? Hoe dankbaar ik je ben?
Je weet het vast wel, je voelt het wel. Maar ik wil toch dat je even weet dat ik je nooit vergeet, hoe onmisbaar jij bent in mijn leven. Ze zeggen altijd dat de tijd alle wonden kan helen. Maar dat is een mening die wij nooit konden delen. Want een diepe wond wordt uiteindelijk een litteken. Elke keer als we ernaar keken. Niet alle littekens zijn zichtbaar en niet alle wonden helen. Dat hebben wij vaak mogen delen. Niet bang om de grenzen te verleggen, samen kon het ons niks schelen. Doen jullie voorzichtig hebben we anderen vaak horen zeggen. Onmogelijke daar geloofden wij in, welk avontuur kreeg nou zijn zin. Wij konden niet tegen ons verlies, ruzie om wie nou de snelste was, of wie als eerste naar beneden zou storten met die skies op die bergpas. Hoe ik het weer eens haatte als ik die foilkite op moest laten. of dat truukje weer eens niet lande, jij mij uitlachte, en ik me dan toch maar vermande, op 0 zetten die gedachte. In het skatepark, op het voetbalveld, op de rails, in de halfpipe, op de sneeuw of op het water….
……..Jij hebt ons zoveel geleerd en gegeven. Was altijd super gedreven, was je nu nog maar even, gewoon heel even bij ons gebleven.
Alles zou nu anders zijn …
In ons hart ben je gebleven. Want hoe zou je nu…? Reageren..? dacht ik nog deze week. Je blijft voor altijd, al is het maar voor even. Hoe je soms met alles mee keek. In mijn gedachten blijf ik je zoeken….en kom je halen want je leeft gewoon verder in onze verhalen.
Jij bent jij
Je pit, je frustratie als het tegen zit, je vrolijkheid, je volle lach, je felheid als iets niet mag. Je gevoeligheid, je stoere praat hoe je laat zien dat je er staat. Je drive voor avontuur, Jij ging niets uit de weg, maakte alles bespreekbaar, ook als ik niets zeg. Stelt precies de juiste vragen, weet ook de antwoorden, zelfs al heb ik er geen.
Jij bent jij
Maar jij, jij bent er niet meer. Met enorme bewondering en respect voor jou. Wat was jij sterk en onze knuffelbeer!
Best friends stick together and never say goodbye – afscheid nemen bestaat niet, maar missen gaan we je wel.
The helmet has a special meaning for many… How important is it to you?
Never thought I would write about it. I did regret having one on my head, but now I like one on my head. And I must say: its quit interesting out there wearing a helmet these days…….
“Watch out Helmets…. beginners: give them some space! (this one I like for sure ) A girl and a helmet, must be a disaster –NOWAY she can kite, were is her boardleash? You better turn around if she is coming towards you on the water – you never know where she will crash her kite (in fact this one is true ). Show her some jumps – as close as possible in front of her face so she can`t miss it, show her how it`s done. Is she really launching that size kite? Better warn her it`s pretty windy, maybe not a good day for a beginner to go. Maybe you should pump a smaller kite or a bigger one, it is not easy for beginners to kite in light wind.
Do you know how to launch me? (you dont even know how I love answering these questions with a serious NO) If I show my thumb you can let go, clear? … Foiling, now? Foilkite, are you sure? There is a lot of wind.. and big waves. Did you measured the lines – they seem too short? Why is your safety ready to unhook? Better be careful, big waves, how long have you been kiting? Are you sure to go alone? Kite towards the water when I am launching you , it’s a bit gusty, but you can do this. Let me carry the board to the water first.“
Thank you guys for that, thanks for all the concerns (and thoughts I don`t even know about – yet), I appreciate it (and will always do!) . And also thanks for all your opinions, but honestly I don’t need them that much:
Actually most of the time YOU are the one in need of a lesson right of way: look over your shoulder when you turn (in a car you are also not suddenly just turning the wheel around is it). Maybe look before you jump and learn to estimate – please………. If we are on the same line and you jump 50 cm to the front, you’re even more in my line and way now, with the kite stuck on 12 o clock, because you couldn`t stick the landing of that amazing jump. But at least I witnessed it. Thanks! Next time a double handle pass would be a better show off. Than I would be impressed, but only then, maybe. Oow and do you know? Connect all 4 lines before asking anyone to launch you, pump your kite hard enough and don’t let anyone fly away (with your kite in their hands) by launching your kite wayyyy tooo much upwind, right into the powerzone, thinking toooo long if you should give me a thumb or not… I understand the rush but…..if there is time to notice that helmet, there is plenty of time to get your equipment ready before I have to discover it`s not – that girl with the helmet. And if there is too much wind, just stay on the shore and leave some space for the helmet so you don’t have too judge this book by her cover…… and she can fly her 4m and have fun. Instead of helping you with your 7m to come back upwind – walking….
“Gotta use your brain, it`s the most important part of your equipment”
Another one I hear a lot: “for sure: you are the one on the beach that need it the less.” What? When I heard this one from a man, who I only met 2 minutes ago, I was a bit confused, didn’t know what to say. Think at that moment I just smiled. Launched my kite and went into the water. Just like the other time a man told me: “Did you really need it today? . eeuh yes”I did.
From that moment I thought what`s wrong with people and than I even get more question marked faces all around:
The size struggle .. Go out there and try…
I get asked by man and especially through girls which kite I used on the water. If the size was oke or too big. Usually I tell them it’s oke and smaller is possible if you don’t want to fly! But when I pick up my stuff and they will see me picking up the helmet… they are taking my story in doubt…walking to some other girl…don`t believe the helmet, its just a beginner- how can she possibly now?. And her boyfriend gives her the advice to take the bigger kite…….too big.
Wind or no wind?
I watch the forecast, the weather (mostly – or at least the tree next doors), you too? I think it`s part of the job. I know when the wind is getting more, or getting less. When there is thunder and sunshine. Still I receive a lot of Warnings walking down to the beach with my helmet under my arm. It`s really windy girl, its picking up, it`s going to rain, you see that cloud…? There are big waves and current…. Thanks for saying. You really give everyone this advice? – or just me. Even if it’s not that harsh conditions…. At least than I understand and I like that advice – thanks again!
And another one I hear a lot: Is it yours? …eeuh YES. That’s for beginners. This time I wanted to say a lot but I stayed again with the Okay, the smile. Because was this a compliment that I am not a beginner or? Why should it? Look into skiing, wakeboarding, snowboarding, skating, mountainbike…. I don’t say we all have to wear a helmet… but we don`t have to be all a beginner to wear a helmet.
Kiting is an extreme sport you know?
Last time I asked about the wind to another guy, toknow the size I had to take. I got the question back: You can kite? Yes.. it`s not really the first time…you know? But explain me one more time , how do I adjust that helmet, and can I borrow your board leash? What kite should I pump? Not sure if I grab the bar doing my 313….. I might crash it the first attempt. Well on the other hand, it`s nice those conclusions made beforehand. And if they see me walking down with a foil and a big foil kite, I straight got the questions, not too big?, can you foil? Well.. maybe, I am just learning. But if I was you I would grab a smaller tube kite to be safe and not fly over the beach and bring your twintip instead of the foil to actually ride today- Just saying.
After all the biggest issue: Not launching my kite…. It`s too big for you little girl… This is one I heard the most. While a lot of days, I am the only one having fun in 50+ knots with my 3m… and all the guys are watching or washing off downwind…. … that 13 year old girl with a helmet…… flying around – I liked that one too Maybe first ask, instead of decide and let me find some random walking people with a dog to help me launching my kite. And lucky enough they are always there for me to launch or land me Thank you!
“life is tough so wear a helmet”
This girl with helmet is grown up (well a little), maybe not kiting as long as all of you, but having more experience than all of you together , I know my limits and I know when I need a helmet and when I don’t need one. It`s my decision. Any doubts about that? Feel free to ask, but not decide. (I promise you a good story, for sure!) And off course there are a looooot of friends too who always help on the beach and know better Thanksss!
So yes, the helmet has a special meaning for many. How important is it to you? – for me it has a lot of special meanings but after all: it protects my head (and prevents my ears from the water coming in)
But you know? It’s the only way to be far away from the news, social media finger pointing virus, the opinions without reasons or proof. The best escape route of the questions with no answers. The place to hide from all people and be alone, finally – not meeting any “moral knights” – who are even worse than the rest. Not facing the reality all day long. A little break from the world.
Finger pointing : you shouldn’t have been there..? who said fun is cancelled..? I don’t say practice that backflip on skates you have never done before But go outside, you deserve it. Don’t sit on the couch with that big bag of nachos, eating your you know what depression away. And kitesurfing in the living room. Guys..? it’s not social isolation……… – we all have different opinions in here – accept it.
A little break, we all need sometimes. Like a lot of you do too, on a bike, walking in the park, to the supermarket or running…But you thought you were so safe and ..what ..how many meters distance again… did you touched that? There is not a specific “right way” to go through this pandemic. Neither there is an award for who is the best or the most miserable going through this. There is no government in the whole world saying “fun” is cancelled. Neither that we should go in social isolation. But also we shouldn`t be playing soccer with the whole country or running on the same road all together.
While waiting for this storm to pass, showing us that the most valuable things in life cannot be bought or touched. A good moment to appreciate what we have. It’s also testing us. How we do this, all together. Because we might have to live like this a little longer.. you know? We might save lives now (in the long term), but we also destroy lives. It’s not only the people in need of a hospital bed suffering, also entrepreneurs and the youth. We can’t hide from the you know what, it exists, it will exist and forever. We should focus on the big picture, because the world is still turning and were just hanging on.
I am not the one to judge, no-one actually. But I think it’s the time we need to come closer to each other, be nice. We have to figure it all out together, with each other and not against each other – finding a way. And not by self-isolating ourselves or others, we can’t do that forever.
And, You Know? I tell you all about it when I see you again!
The last time I asked myself constantly, is this our world? Now I know. It`s definitely our world. And the world changed, it`s still turning and we are just hanging on.
You know? that a crashing skateboard or bouncing ball suddenly makes a lot of noise on the empty parking lots and schoolyards? Airplanes disappeared from the sky, while birds appeared in the sky. Rabbits pop up in the middle of the city. Because you had to close your doors. You know I miss you? Instead of laughing at you being drunk, offering me a drink, it’s a duck who passes the street offering me a lost face during my mid night bicycle ride to work. The signs closed re everywhere and the world changed to one big tack away adventure.
You know? I still don’t know where to stand at the traffic light to push that button or not. If I can pass that people or not. If I can greet my friend or not. It feels weird passing people with a big circle and not having to slalom between the taxi drivers. And you know? Its strange not seeing you anymore, waiting for me at the traffic light, walking the dog waiting for my hello and high 5. Instead I am chasing teddy bears and wondering where you are? You know? It feels a little sad. We have to wait on distance from each other for the storm to pass. Stay home as much as possible and stay safe – but this words are not always hand in hand. And you know? I miss you staring at me during the daily walk, when I practice my new tricks the support. Miss the ears that truly listen about my recent kite – adventures Instead Patience, acceptance, balcony bingo , lockdown party, window waving, cancelled, virtual dinner and social distance are new words we learn.. But you know what? I tell you all about it when I see you again!
You know? I miss you, the sand and the salt – the perfect moments and the frustration you gave us training. Meeting up with you became illegal in some countries. We can go less to the beach and have to accept the closed spots. It shouldn’t be a discussion how to still train effectively… To beat the rest of the world? but what if the world beats us? Some people have time enough, others to short. There are more important fights right now. But you know what? I tell you all about it when I see you again!
This storm (The –You –Know –What) is here to show us that the most valuable thongs in life cannot be seen, bought or touched. Remember the times when you could surf, travel, skate, run, basically do WHATEVER you wanted to. The moment you lose it, it’s a good moment to appreciate freedom and all of it.
The time we have ahead of us is filled up with uncertainty. No one has all the facts. No one knows what will happen. No one knows how it will end. No one knows if it will end. Some days are better, some days are worse. Stay positive, stay strong. You can’t do it all, but you can do your best….
….Cause, we ALL have the responsibility to do everything we can to make sure this crises passes sooner rather than later – together. So we can get back to our lives, spending time with the people who mean the most to us and doing the things we love the best. So listen to the advice. Be patience. Be nice.
Meanwhile one thing is for sure our current life is not available. #standby
It`s hard, but not impossible It`s long, but I see the end It`s that I miss it all, but I know the wind, the ocean & the mountains are waiting for me..
I`lll be back as promised! We are all back as promised!
And yes, the rules have changed, the entire world has been flipped into the air like a giant pancake and no one is quite sure how it`s going to land. Something what I also ls don’t know if I slide the rails or do that flip… but different. Through all of this. Stay strong, stay home, stay creative! The storm will pass. Once its passed we can shred like there is no tomorrow. We are riding through this – together!
Meanwhile I say YES, that’s me not so secretly anymore chasing freedom for a while.
Lot of times people ask me how? how I did it? How it comes that all happens in a certain way. How I can do it all? How to be good? and how they can be like me… first of all let me tell you keep going being yourself. You don’t know me.
“Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what they have been through.”
A lot of times I read in messages: I want to be good. I want to be just like you. Where do I start? And straight after that: but I never have the right conditions, I can`t, I have no time, no money… AND you, you trained a lot (and I have to work , school etc. #excuses) – Let me clear that up as well. That is not always the truth. People tend to forget I do a lot more, not just one discipline. And maybe came from really far – not the easy way. So yes I trained a lot but not just one thing. I bet if you calculate time I got the less time on the same thing you got. And maybe even kite shorter than you. And besides that I also work 5 days a week and do a fulltime study, besides playing soccer, skiing, snowboarding, all kitesurfing disciplines and a lot more!! Still excuses? Always the complaining, comparing, conclusions before even starting or trying. And you know what? A Lot is to do with yourself. My answer is always: Go for it, dive in and learn swimming. Go out there and try! Create that way and just don’t give up.
Because, something might be different between you and me, something that helped me to get where I am now: no matter how good you are, no matter the conditions, no matter where you are now, no matter what ever happened in live, no matter which challenges you faced. You can do it too – there is always a way.
Being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect. It means you have decided to look behind imperfections. Yes, sometimes its winter in Holland and we don’t have the money or time to travel. But get that winter wetsuit out and drive to the beach, have fun! At least now you did fly that kite and you will notice it’s not that bad at all. When I started I learned most in winter time.. nice and quiet on the water and warm in my drysuit – don’t care what other people think. Even if you have to defrost your lines inside the restaurant. Or bring the landboard. And off course the wind is not always right, gusty, too less or too strong for the things you wanted to practice. Forget about your goals for that day, let the wind decide and go with it. And well some days there is just no wind or you have to swim back, walk upwind or be rescued… that means your testing the limits. That’s something good. Be creative and make up another plan. Take a SUP or fly that kite again on the beach. Every minute out there you will learn something even if it might be small. Train your mind, your body will follow. A positive mindset will help you a lot in live to reach goals and be happy. Progress is impossible without change and those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything. It all begins in your mind , what you think , you create.
Yes fail! I have been given up more than once. I have lost matches, sponsorships, competitions, friends, crashed too many times, missed marks and missed the goal even more. Made a mess of everything. Have failed over and over again. But I kept playing until I got it right and wrong again. I never gave up and that’s why I succeeded. Never stop when you are tired, stop when you are done – that’s what my coach always told me. He always forgot about one thing…. I am never done J Mistakes are the proof that you are trying. Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and think of what could go right. Or maybe even better do not think at all – just go! You got this . The only thing you have to do is to try again and try one more time – always. You will get used to failing, crashing and you will learn it gets you progress and makes you stronger! And besides that you will find a lot of ways that don’t work, the way that works will wait for you. If I came home with a dry kite.. my parents told me: you didn’t practiced anything new today – are you going back out there? As my kites are usually dirty and wet, because without crashing no progression. And you now failing is fun too at least afterwards.
“Fail : first attempt in learning.”
Don’t compare your progress to that of others. NEVER. We all need our own time to travel our own distance. This is a reaaaaaaly important one. It will only make you feel bad and yet -here you will lose your confidence in yourself. Comparing yourself with others is a battle you will NEVER win. I did this a lot of time knowing I could do a lot before and after I couldn`t catch up on skies anymore. It`s only frustrating yourself. Now I make my own way, follow my own journey and open my own doors – which feels way better and makes me progress much more. Be confident, too many days are already waisted comparing ourselves to others and wishing to be something we are not (and we will never be – so forget about that). Everybody has their own strengths and weakness – and its only when you accept everything you are and everything you are not that you will truly succeed in life! Instead compare yourself to the person you was yesterday.
Yes , be stubborn. I know Stubborn can be good or bad, it’s the way you use it. Be stubborn about your goals but flexible about your methods. I am stubborn and I admit it and its okay. I know I am strong willed and can be very annoying sometimes – for everyone around. But I will forgive whether I am right or wrong. Life has knocked me down more than once . It showed me things I never wanted to see, I experienced failures and sadness. But one thing for sure I always got up! Be stubborn and never let go. Everyone has bad days, pick yourself up, smile , take a deep breath and keep going. Every day is a new beginning. Don’t give up finding YOUR way. But do remember that sometimes it takes bending to avoid breaking. Sometimes you just have to hold on a bit longer than you think you can and everything will come together. Keep on practicing that trick, fight for that goal – don’t let it go. Sometimes it`s just a bit adjustment but you will find a way.
“If there is no way- create one, write your own story and leave footprints.”
Stay focused. Don’t focus on what you’re up against of fighting the old. Focus on your own goals and building the new. Try to ignore the rest when you have to. Focus is also about saying no. Sometimes you have to make decisions in what to do. Make sacrifices. It can be hard but some things don’t fit your focus or will distract you. Learn to say no. It will help you progress in your goals and your way of live.
And focus on the right things. When you focus on the problems or the past . You will have more problems. When you focus on possibilities you will have more opportunities. I have done competitions with the oldest gear, but I focused on my own race, my own tactics, my tricks and made my way into the world of competing – into podium finishes … as I wanted. Because I focused on what I could do, I did know my (old) gear and worked it out.
Work in progress
Progress takes time! Accept it. Otherwise you will be disappointed pretty fast. Those who make it look easy have worked hard over time. Believe me. A little talent, luck, coaching and materials will help, but after all it’s the effort you put in yourself. A little progress each day ends up to big results. Strive for progress, not perfection. Everybody is a work in progress. I am a work in progress.. I mean, I`ve never arrived, I`m still learning all the time. The struggle you’re in today is developing the strength you need tomorrow. Trust that struggle and enjoy it. Make it fun that will help you even though it’s not working out today soon or later it will! How many times I have been swimming with that big foil kite.. ready to drop it in between the trash, thinking it`s impossible. But every day I came a bit further and started to see it as a project: work in progress. Just like that stupid tricks you think you will never land – keep on going.
Make some trouble or better be it: #troublemaker
Don’t forget to eat your lunch and make some trouble that’s what my grandma told me. If you want to achieve greatness, stop asking for permission. If you don’t ask permission no-one can say no. Make your days count! You know? Rules are made for people who aren’t willing to make up their own… Its your game, your live! Spend it in your own way and enjoy!! And maybe learn the rules so you know how to break them effectively. Sometimes it’s enough to test the elasticity. You will find your own way, in everything. Just have fun, be yourself, enjoy live and the rest will follow. One way or the other. In this way you will be testing your own limits, keep pushing yourself and will be learning a lot. Don’t hold back.
But remember everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind – always!